Yesterday...............All my troubles seem so far away!

Yeah Right - LOL Well partially anyway!

Yesterday was a mixed bag of everything! After being up half the night because I went to sleep so early the previous night and lamenting over the latest in my heart condition. Yes I have a heart condition - its call stupidity! I decided that if the walking dead is how I have to live right now, then so be it!

I finally got my ass up and decided to clean my room thoroughly! My pooch, Roxy, has a liver/bladder condition which quite frankly is getting on my last f-ing nerves! So I decided I would pick up her blankets and put them in the wash! (She has a tendency to wake up at the last minute and realizing she has to pee, takes one step off her blanket and lets it rip. Now for a small dog - she has the bladder of an adult person.)

I then opened the door from my room to the outside and told her to get her pissy ass out there while I cleaned. After sweeping the floor and checking on where she is wondering to, I got a bottle of disinfectant floor cleaner and went to work on scrubbing the floor. Once that was done and screaming like white trash at her because she is a block away, I began putting everything back together and went to retrieve my little piss machine. She runs up the steps and I noticed she had wollered in something that looked like mud, but, I bet was a combination of things! I scooped her little piss-ant ass up before she ruined my floor and took her directly to the sink in the laundry room! On my way through my room, I grabbed the Suave because I decided she should look like I spent a fortune on her hair!

After wrestling with her because she presses herself against me like the world is going to end, I was finally able to suds her up, rinse and repeat, and rinse again! I should have just gotten in the shower with her, since I was as wet as she was by the time it was over. I took a towel to her and tried to dry her as much as her wiggling little ass would let me and then proceeded to lay a nice, soft, clean blanket down for her. She promptly walked over to her paper and took another pee! Then she decided she would get in her blanket herself without any assistance from me. At least, I raised an independent pee machine!

Our one guest had checked out, so I figured I would go check on my fish which is still in the old room. Yes - he has his own personal heater still turned on to insure he doesn't become a frozen fillet. After giving him his food, I decided to lug more shit over to my new room and go through it. I found so many bottles of body wash and shower gel from my friend David, that I wondered just how clean he must be! Yee gads - I think he has a shower gel fetish! Just kidding buddy - You know I love ya!

Anyway, just as I was about to jump in the shower, 3 seasonal guests show up. First they were all drunk and drove up the hill which was very disappointing, so I proceeded to take the keys and put them away so they couldn't drive back down the hill as they intended. Then I rented them a room. One of our other new seasonals came up and worked on his cabin. Matt came up to start making pizza's and I finally was able to have some me time and take a nice, long, hot shower.

I then went to the dance hall and played some music and turned on the lights, etc. We had pizza and all was well. I had noticed that 2 of our seasonals began making goo-goo eyes at each other and once again found myself just shaking my head. They disappear to the room that another seasonal had rented while I had to entertain the other two. Finally, they all go back to the room about 8:30 which made for a much needed early night.

I called my sister and we ended up having a great conversation. She picked up on my being a little down and before ya know it, we were laughing our asses off. We were talking about how ironic our lives have been with Love being the huge topic of conversation! She was laughing so hard she couldn't breathe when I told her about the day and the people . When I told her I had decided that I think I should just be single and hold everyone at arms length, she couldn't breathe, she began laughing so hard. I was being quite flippant with her and overly sarcastic about my choice in men, which brought on even more laughter.

Once I got off the phone with her after 2 hours, I decided to catch up on some reading but received a text from this guy whom I had met when I was in Columbus through mutual friends. He and I had never really talked since meeting, but, we had exchanged numbers and e-mail addresses. He texts that for some reason he was thinking about me and decided to send me a text. He also said that he was very shy which was why he was hesitant about reaching out to me. We ended up texting for about an hour before I decided to go to bed. We had a really nice conversation and it felt good to get to know him. As it turns out, he is only about 60 miles from here as he moved home to be closer to his mother who is getting up there in age! We have decided to keep in touch and I think he and I will be friends. He will probably come visit me sometime as I have invited him to come hang out at some point.

This morning, about 7 a.m., I hear someone in the house calling my name. It is one of the seasonal guests that spent the night. He just had to give me blow-by-blow (and I do mean Blow-by blow) about what happened between the 4 of them last night. Being that is was so early and I have a tendency to be less then objective when I first get up, I proceeded to tell him that I did not want to hear it and that I wasn't impressed or intrigued by their tryst. He finally left after hugging me and thanking me for a wonderful time and I could not help thinking about how self centered people can be. Now, granted, I have my issues, but lack of class, integrity, and discretion are not among them thankfully!

With that said, I have decided that I am just going to stay single and enjoy my friends, family, (a few of them anyway), my job, etc., and to hell with the love shit! I have too much to offer folks and love just doesn't seem to be in the cards for me. I think I have come to terms with that fact and hopefully, that means, I can get back to being me. Enjoying my life, taking it all in stride, avoiding the folks that show interests, because their interest in me is only fleeting! I don't want my bad luck with other men, turn into a trust issue with any potential mates, so I have decided to try and avoid putting myself in the line of fire again. I am going to try and take folks at face value and play dumb if they start flirting or if I even get an inkling that their interest in me may be romantic. Find myself attracted to someone - Run like hell! Trust me - I am learning that - being an "Owner of a Lonely Heart" is much better then being an owner of a broken heart! (See song Lyrics by Yes)

Now it appears I am being bitter, but, actually, I am being honest and realistic. Really, seriously, what "Does love have to do with it?" and it just may be true that "Love Stinks". I know I am on a song lyric kick, but music is truly one of my great loves! And for those past lost loves, check out the lyrics by Mariah Carey to "Someday" and think of me! Again, not being bitter because I could have listed a recently popular song to look at titled "Fuck You" or as the radio stations play it "Forget You"! I would never do that, put aside the fact that I dislike that song with passion!

OK - Enough Already!!!!!