Well I have had the last few days off and for the most part I have slept, read, and watched True Blood.
This past weekend was slow as we only had a dozen guests. We had a bonfire in the short term parking and a Hayride in the new wagon which was very cool. I created a room cleanliness checklist and some organized information for our cleaning guy who has been struggling with getting it all done. He says it was awesome to have it this week.
This coming weekend is going to be busier then we have expected. It is always nice to get back to work after having a few days off. It gives me the structure that I miss during those times I am off.
The maintenance guy and his assistant have made great progress on the new deck addition and they are ready to put the floor on tomorrow. Mark has been working diligently on cleaning up the landscaping and trimming trees.
As for me, I think I am going through some sort of depression along with the anxiety. I do not have the energy to do some cleaning that I need to get done. I am very lonely a lot and can't wait until folks get here. Then it never really helps when I have to be by myself! I truly am my own worst enemy at times. I wish I could find the inner happiness and look at my cup as half full, as opposed to, half empty. I also have a negative streak that really pisses me off sometimes. It doesn't help that everyone thinks I have my shit together and really do not need anyone or anything from anyone. When you are strong, you cease to exist! I would love to just curl up with someone and truly relax! Maybe someday that will happen!!!
Ok - enough bullshit for one night....................
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