Plethora Of Poop................

At the risk of sounding like the most negative person in the world......................This week has SUCKED!!!!

I woke up Sunday Morning feeling like crap and it got worse by Monday! My head has felt like a bowling ball and I have been sick to my stomach all week!

I had a lengthy conversation on Wednesday with my mother, which is usually me listening while she rambles on and on about mundane stuff. However, she threw in some things that my second older sister has been saying about me. Needless to say, I had to defend myself and set the record straight on a number of things, half of which, I am sure she got wrong, since she has selective hearing. Needless to say, I got off the phone feeling beat up and pressured and made to feel like a shit-heel.

I also found out some very bad news about a friend of mine. He was a regular guest up here and while we were not close Friends, I was mentoring him on cleaning up his life and being careful about how he treated people, etc. Well, come to find out he is in prison and there are 8 felony charges against him, all of which, because the nature of the crimes committed, will have to be served consecutively. The very least he can get for each count is 3 years and since he has to serve them consecutively he will be in prison for at least 24 years. Now this kid is 22 years old and has ruined his entire life.

Then I upset one of my closest friends, unintentional, but still very upsetting for both of us. Given all that had happened up to this point, I spent the rest of the day crying off and on which did wonders for my head. Not to mention fielding calls about our liquor license and getting raked over the coals for something I can do nothing about.

Then this morning, I had to make breakfast for our one guest, the construction guys, and one of the owners. I burnt some of the Bacon and some of the Sausage Links. Someone rang the bell early before I was even ready so I had to scramble to get toast in and fry eggs. The maintenance guy had been cleaning the stainless steel over the stove area and replaced my cooking spray with Stainless Steel Spray which I used to fry the eggs in. Needless to say I did not realize my error until everyone was halfway through their breakfast, so I stood in the kitchen and proceeded to have a Panic Attack as to what I was going to do. I ended up having to come clean about my error and they all had great laughs at my expense. It was funny after the fact, and no one got sick at all, but still I felt like a piece of shit about that and stupid as all get out! Needless to say, I told the owners I will not be making breakfast anymore so one of them will have to do it for now on.

Then feeling like shit all week, put me behind with laundry which I just finished at 11:00 at night - 4 loads to be exact. Roxy needs a bath, the fish tank needs cleaned, along with my room. I need to fill out my taxes, etc., and I do not feel like doing anything.

The weather has absolutely sucked rope the entire week, and given the nature of my job, I am in and out all day, which I am sure is doing wonders for my sinuses and feeling sick to begin with. I have an overwhelming urge to clean out my bank account of what little it has in it, fill up the tank with $5.00 per gallon gas, and drive south until I can't drive anymore!!!!

Lets not forget the icing on the cake! Because of who I am and the fact that all of the above has actually happened, I am beating myself up and feeling guilty for being so negative and sad!

I will end this by saying to myself - ..............................."GET OFF THE CROSS, MARY - SOMEONE ELSE NEEDS THE WOOD!"