I knew it would happen.................

Hey Folks! Well, after rereading my last post, I don't know why it surprises me that I am on the down side of everything I wrote. It is funny how life seems to ebb and flow and sometimes we are on top of the world and sometimes on the bottom. The beauty in it all is I am stronger for it, I can be alone and not just survive, but flourish, I know that this down time will only last a season.



Even though my heart is broken and I am hurting right now, it will heal, get better, and rejoice at some point. Even though I have a lump in my throat right now, I can still swallow. I know I can be and am a good friend to people. I know I can truly care romantically after many years of not thinking I could feel that way about anyone again. Unfortunately, the feelings were not and are not reciprocated, however, how I know it is real is because I still want whats best for him and only want his happiness. While I know I could be happy with him and make him happy romantically, that doesn't stop me from being objective and stepping aside for whatever it is he feels he needs, wants, or pursues, in the name of love. I truly only wish him the best and will continue to push aside those stronger feelings to be his good friend!


I am on this mountain all alone for the most part. I took Roxy out for a walk today and we frolicked in the 60 degree temperatures for about an hour! The birds were all singing, the trees are starting to bud, the sun was shining, and a warm breeze was blowing. Spring is pushing our way and not a moment too soon.



I have adopted a stray cat and she is so feral and timid. I saw her out here one night last week and put a can of tuna and a bowl of milk out for her. She waited until I disappeared before even coming onto the porch to eat. I went to the store and purchased some cans of cat food and the other night, after 5 days of playing cat and mouse with her (no pun intended), I went out to call her and she was sitting 5 feet from me on the porch. She is now letting me watch her eat! Tonight, I realized why I feel such a kinship with her. She is alone in her life also!



This evening I watched the Oscars and experienced the first thunderstorm of the year. I stood out on the porch and watched the rain come down while the lightning flashed and the thunder boomed across the mountain. Perhaps that is what has me in a melancholy mood.



Anyway, I think I am going into Columbus this week sometime. I have to get my license renewed and my tags. Obviously they are late getting done for a number of reasons. West Virginia requires an arm and a leg and your firstborn to get your tags and license here. Since I am still using my arms and legs and no chance of having a first born, I decided to get them renewed in Ohio and then work on getting all of the material I need to get them switched here at a later date.



"nough" said.............